Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Small and Simple Things

Have you ever thought that you and Heavenly Father are finally on the same page and then you get thrown something that you thought, "wait a minute, I thought we had an understanding here." To say that California has been a wonderful place to live is extremely false. Now to be fair it hasn't all been bad. We have has a ton of fun going places we would never have gone and doing things that friends have invited us to do. I have loved every adventure and outing that has come our way. Its the everyday small things that are getting to be a struggle. 

The laundry has become a monster I seem to tackle and than the next day its back in full force. The floor is always cluttered with kid paraphernalia and the beds seem to unmake themselves. Not to mention the different smells of each room, reminding me what needs to be done. Robb constantly saying "something smells in the fridge." That's when I feel like saying "well... clean it." But I don't and I say "really I don't smell a thing." In the sweet manner in which I live my life, yet putting it on my never ending todo list. 

Being in primary now since we moved here over 2 years ago, I need some enlightenment into how to tackle these little yet enormous things that consume my life. Sacrament is a bust. I combat Betsy who has figured out her dad sits on the stand and is constantly fighting to get out of the pew and see her dad. So We fight until sacrament is over and then I let her go. She walks from me to Robb to the piano and all around the stand then back to me. I look over at the mom who has 4 kids like me and her husband is deployed and her kids are sitting sweetly coloring. Those are time when I think, Okay so whats she doing I'm not?
I love primary and being with the kids. I love to teach primary and be goofy and sing songs. A couple of weeks ago I even cried during a sunbeams talks that he had memorized. Sadly that's how starved I am for some spiritual enlightenment. 

I went to a doctors appointment yesterday for a rash that has slowly taken over my whole body. Driving 45 minutes to wait 30 minutes for a 10 minute appointment and then just get some cream because the don't know, is a bit frustrating. I made the mistake of taking my prescription to Walmart while in town and had to wait an hour to fill the prescription. 

I sat in Walmart people watching and contemplating how Heavenly Father and I fell off the same path on the way I saw my life going. Aren't I suppose to be the mom who has FHE all put together every Monday with cute pinterest activities each time? (Pinterest makes me feel like a bad mom) I should have my house sparkling each morning and be able to sew anything I want and have plenty of time to play with the kids doing crafts and bike rides all while having dinner cooking on the stove. Where did the little things creep up to become the big things? I love to people watch and saw many young families with just one or two kids and thought wow. I remember when I thought how having two was so hard and now we have 4! I wouldn't trade one of my kids, I love them more than I thought I ever could. They are my a part of my heart and will be forever and ever. 

Taking this time to myself I wanted to read something so I opened the conference talks and read. I got to a talk called "Small and Simple Things," by Arnolfo Valenzuela. He talks of the scripture in Alma as hes telling his son Helaman to keep a record. 

“Now ye may suppose that this is foolishness in me; but behold I say unto you, that by small and simple things are great things brought to pass; and small means in many instances doth confound the wise.

“And the Lord God doth work by means to bring about his great and eternal purposes; and by very small means the Lord doth confound the wise and bringeth about the salvation of many souls” (Alma 37:6–7).
I'm almost 100% Alam wasn't thinking about my messy house when he said this to his son but I will take it! So this morning when I woke up. I will make the beds that will be unmade this afternoon, pick up the toys just ONCE! Continue to tackle my laundry and even clean the refrigerator for a special someone. I will take the kids on a walk to the park after school just for fun. And when dinner time comes around I will put together something and when they all say " I don't like this " I will say "I'm sorry what would you like me to make tomorrow?" 
I really don't know where I'm going with this but I took from this scripture, that I need to do these little things that how ever foolish they may seem. They are what keep my house feeling like a home. It's not my favorite things to do but honestly who loves laundry, dishes, cleaning house and everything being a stay at home mom does? Its not glamorous but today I have a renewed sense of life. Maybe Heavenly Father and I are on the same page I just get a little lost now and then. I am grateful for the resources I have to able to find inspiration in a non inspirational place.  

(note to self, take more picture. this is the only one I could find with all the kids together)

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